when it pains it roars

ha ha ha

Wed, 13 May 2009 23:25:37 GMT

your doom is near. oh, isnt this cute?:

Mon, 11 May 2009 08:16:55 GMT

please, please, please let me get what i want
lord knows it would be the first time

Thu, 07 May 2009 01:55:21 GMT

so many obstacles making my heart race.

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 19:17:04 GMT

If someone grew up in a cubicle as Plato once suggested

They would only know the cubicle and not the world outside it

And they wouldn't view the cubicle as something geometric

We only know it's a cubicle because we live outside it

Now the one inside the cubicle can't comprehend the measurements

Because measurements are models made up for and by observers

Relative to their position on the outside of the cubicle

Though understand objectively so they can study further

If I grew up in a cubicle the walls are in my universe

Id have no knowledge of the entirety like the outsiders do

If you follow what I say and can swallow the powdered water

Close your eyes and open your minds, this one's for you

We dont know the rules of our heads

From inside these cubicles we cant see the truth

No one really knows exactly what happens when we think

Therefore we can never really ever know anything

le sighh.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 04:16:18 GMT

my brain is telling me one thing, and i've got my heart telling me three OTHER things.
what to do ? i suppose i could continue racking my brain till my head implodes, or till i figure out what the fuck is going on in the life of me.

shit, this is worse than a fork in the road.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 02:29:57 GMT

i bought my ticket today... i'll be movin back to the ATL apr. 28 biiiiitchesssss
fiinaaaalllyyyy

friends are supposed to do dirt together, not on each other.

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 19:47:01 GMT

I burned a couple bridges. I'm feelin good about it, shit was long passed due. Time for a new chapter. You? nah - you don't know shit about fresh starts. You run in circles and re-kindle shitty old friendships once your previous friends want nothing to do with you or your scumbag habits. I, personally, hope you OD successfully the second time around. Dumb fuck.

neew slaaang: do you know what REALLY bugs me? phonies.
dontreadonmex: aaaaamen

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 00:15:30 GMT

misery loves company

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 15:53:13 GMT

YO

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 08:47:14 GMT

HEY YOU, GET OFF MY CLOUD. YOU DONT KNOW ME & YOU DONT KNOW MY STYLE. TRY AND TAKE MY HEAVEN, THEN I GOTTTTAAA GIVE YOU HELL.

like a king without his crown.

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 07:58:16 GMT

stripin' away the layers and reveal your soul
ya gotta give yourself up and then you'll become whole
you're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
you want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
if you're trying to stay high, you're bound to stay low
you're cup's already full then it's bound to overflow
if you're drowning in the waters and you can't stay afloat
ask ijah for mercy and he'll throw you a rope
like a King without his Crown
you keep fallin' down
you really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
you're tryin to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
out of night comes day {and} out of day comes light

03/09 ATLANTA OR BUST.

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:57:44 GMT

i cant sleep now, life keeps me awake.

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 08:19:04 GMT

exhausted by the storm before the calm, holding on to a memory keeping it warm within my palm. wake up, Time Bomb, the clock is ticking. all you got's a pot to piss in and some wrong decisions and here you are again, emotions in your hand like your powerless, an innocent victim of circumstances.
tell me that it hurts again. tell me that it weighs you down. tell you that you need me and I'll tell you that I hate you now. FUCK YOU, you don't know what you need. and this is the last time I'll tell you, next time I'm gonna leave.

I can't watch your destruction
I can't trust your judgement
I swear to God your better then this
I wish you'd quit those drugs, bitch

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 14:08:33 GMT

i am flawed if i'm not free.
things are good. let them stay that way, please.

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:40:44 GMT

so, I live with a beast. basically. im mad sick of deliberately gettin fucked with &spit at. im gonna start benching 300lbs daily so I can beat this idiots ass. im about at my breaking point vcfkdj0owesluj motherfucker!

I start school january 5th. im gonna be paying student loans off till im 60, most likely. FTW!

trying to find a balance.

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 06:51:57 GMT

this year has been really strange, thus far. I've grown and experienced so fucking much in the past 6 months & to be totally honest its a bit overwhelming. im doin this whole 'focus on yerself' type thing and I guess that's going alright; I mean im really just trying to get myself the fuck out of this town - whether it be south florida or the west coast - I just need the fuck out. for good.

with that being said, my days as of late have consisted of workin, ganja, painting, & sleeping - when I can find the time. the friends have gone down in numbers drastically, by choice, but over all id say im still just as introverted, if not more now. ha. when it comes down to it, its just that people are dissapointing. its whatevs.

XO,R.

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 03:54:18 GMT

IM ALIVE. ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 22:23:43 GMT

california. ot,feb 14.

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 23:52:33 GMT

benji and i made it to seattle. took five days to get out here, but goddamnit we did it.
we were riding through the pass, which is through the rocky mountains &it was the craziest shit ive ever seen. soo much snow, shit. anyways, i think we're gonna chill here for a month or so till it gets a bit warmer and start our adventure down the west coast and across the US.. i'll keep you goobers posted.

386 898 3177

xoxoxo

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 20:16:21 GMT

im fuckin stuck in philly with 8$ to my name.
sam is charging her and devins ticket back to florida.
me and benji are gonna stick it out like true road dogs.
we keep missing the fucking juice train though, god damnit.
its cold as fuck, and wet as fuck in philadelphia.
i wont stop till im in seattle, or any other place west. fuck the east coast. and fuck the south.

xoxoxo

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 09:26:56 GMT

this feeling is more of a constant than any of you ever have been. its unfortunate. i had it grasped so tightly and then it slipped and now everything is all fucked. maybe i subconciously really dont want to be happy... i dono that concept doesnt seem logical to me in all actuality. who knows though, really. im exhausted and bitter, but i have myself to thank for it in the end. im not sure how long i can keep treading in this stream of bullshit because it just seems to get thicker and thicker by second. im bound to drown at one point or another. any one of us would.

two headed boy, all floating in glass.

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 01:16:03 GMT

Patience, I need more, as my temper becomes tempted To. up and down on this seesaw. I should escape, I should disappear. Its gettin clear, crystal clear. I'm in a bad position here.... I gave you power, gave you control But you had to play the role. Reckless with the treasure that you hold, There isn't much as unsatisfying as the blind man listening, believing in the one that's lying. Hide the crying, tears in the pocket; A fool for the interlude that introduced the moshpit. Exhausted by the storm, before the calm, Holding on to a memory, keeping it warm within my palm. Wake up, Time Bomb, the clock is ticking. Shot the gift and all you got's a pot to piss in and some wrong decisions and here you are again, emotions in your hand like your powerless, an innocent victim of circumstance. Tell me that it hurts again, Tell me that it weighs you down. Tell you that you need me And I'll tell you that I hate you now. FUCK YOU, you don't know what you need And this is the last time I'll tell you. Next time I'm gonna leave. I can't watch your destruction. I can't trust your judgement. I swear to God your better then this. I wish you'd quit those drugs, bitch

High or low, hot and cold, took the wheel, lost control. Good and bad, wrong or right, die to live a longer life. Stop and go, in and out, touch and feel, scream and shout. Back aforth,up and down, off the course, fuck it now. I can't sleep now, lying keeps me awake. Now here I stand, the threshold of anger. A pathway-- to which I am no stranger. Danger lurks the other side, once I cross, I black out. And I start to act out, act my age, act my color. Act a fool, actin' other then myself (in a way) . Quick, to the shelf, and dusted of the AK. A war with no reason, America's demon. I reside and hide in the beast underneath. A inch of flesh and skull, if the brain vain pops, Might become a vegetable, so I take the stress in full. Pull hard on a cigarette thinking that an aneurysm might just be a quicker death. I flick the Red and keep in step, Figure stress to make you blow your brains out From the inside, without the double barrel. Blood bubble, eyes narrow. Veins bulged from the forehead. More trouble than it's worth, some calls read.... so I pause for my head., two fingers to my temple as the tempo increases, not for peace, but a piece as in cold steel. I hold still, clutch... Want to cock back, bust and thrust this pressure from my head, Before my brain starts to flush. Hush, you hear that? It's the voices that's talking. the Squalkin, mine can get me stopping, twitchin and itchin. To get into some shit then--- (scream) Head spinnin, they winnin, blendin, evil would say it bit in my wheel sendin a chill till I...

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 00:26:08 GMT

fuck 11, i thought it had some sentimental fucking meaning. in the end, it turned out to be the worst number. ive. ever. encountered.

rnh.ily.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 06:57:49 GMT

OCTOBER?? where the fuck
when the fuck??

this year went by too fast.

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 07:15:20 GMT

i never had height, but boy i got heart.